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Monday, 11 January 2010

so i DID go out to watch the movie with my ex yesterday. watched avatar 3D. Very interesting and creative!! Unfortunately we did not get to finish it, and here is why:
1. yes it was my EX who asked me to the movies with him
2. right before we hung out, he had mentioned about how he had to attend his friend's farewell party around 7 ish.
3. the movie started around 5 and it was pretty lengthy. It was 6:30 and he kept on looking at his watch. I asked him if he had to go and he had to leave before we even got to finish watching the movie!
i felt so used!! yea i knew about him needing to go to his farewell party but come on.. couldn't he have missed it??? We could've finished watching the movie. It was almost at the ending scene. He could've gone a little late.. All my friends had told me not to go with him but i went anyways and this is wat i get for not listening to my friends. On top of that i owe MY friend $22 because she had originally purchased the tickets for us thinking we'd join them. I canceled at the last minute on her cuz my ex wanted to go alone with me. I did all this for him and in return wat do i get?? well i did not get to finish the movie AND on top of that now i owe her $22 for the movie i didn't get to even finish watching. Who can i blame?? It's my fault for being stupid. I was extremely hungry too after he dropped me off.. He COULD'VE at least took me out to eat u know?? I went through all that trouble to grant his wish wanting to watch movie with me and in return, i feel SO used.
any thoughts??

Friday, 08 January 2010

why would an ex text you asking you out?
we broke up not too long ago but it seemed like he really was fed up with me. I still kept in contact with him. even yesterday i took him out to a dinner. we broke up on a real bad note. it really got ugly towards the end.. It certainly was his fault but it was not entirely his fault. I still felt bad for getting my mom involved... mom basically told him off. thought that was it. i thought that was the end of it all.
I'm doing fine with the break-up though. I feel bad on my part but other than that I don't miss him or long to hang with him as I used to. I'm doing just fine on my own. Sometimes I talk to him because I want to AND also because I worry he might be bored. I wanna be nice to him because I don't think i was that nice to him during our relationship.
anyways, sure we hung out yesterday. I haven't called him all day today and niether did he. and just a few minutes ago, he texted me asking me to hang with him. Is it a good idea to hang with him or not? Personally I don't mind but I don't see a point in it as my feelings for him has subsided down alot. but is "texting" asking a girl out proper?? why didn't he "call" instead of text?? especially if he wanted to ask me to hang with him tomorrow. I don't get it. Am i just there to kill his boredom or is he genuinly interested in hanging with me??

Monday, 04 January 2010

Where did it go all wrong?
What did I ever do to make him resent me?
Where is all this hatred he has toward me coming from?
He even said that he needs to be with a girl that's caring and someone who could support him to be successful cuz whether a man becomes successful or not depends on the girl that they're with. And said that i'm not that girl for him.
That was mean. Very mean.
Well let see if he'll ever find that girl for him. Who the hell is he to tell me such things?
Eh.. he's not worth it anyways. He's pathetic.
I'm mad at myself even more to have positioned me at a point where he can say those things to me.

How is HE going to end it with ME!!! Unacceptable. Unbelievable!!!